Not such a weird mind. I find it easier to argue on the one hand, on the other hand if I have to explain it out loud to someone else.
Following the explanations… I still agree with your muse. I haven’t read that much of your fiction but what I have read is original and memorable. That isn’t so common. And more importantly, you’ve done some living, have something to say and can say it clearly, articulately — and that goes beyond uncommon to rare. I hope very much you turn back to the writing your muse demands of you :)